Oh yes. Addiction can be a never ending battle when you are struggling with a chronic illness/pain.
My husband has had 26+ surgeries on his feet that are nothing but trouble. Last September they amputated his right leg below the knee. It was a huge blow. It was a long recovery. It was expensive and required him to take narcotics. He was able to start a Suboxone program in January and hadn't taken Narcotics since then.
It was too good to last. Yesterday I admitted him back into the hospital with a doozy of an ulcer on his left foot. There have not been any decisions made, but he may now lose his other leg in the next few days.
A double amputee.
He is heartbroken. And angry. And back on Narcotics.
We feel like all the work, suffering, and effort to get off was a waste of time. And all the other times he has gotten off drugs only to be required to take them again because of an injury or surgery? Those were a waste of time too. It seems so unfair that he is asked to do this over and over and over again. Each time his strength and determination is less. It's killing him.
I hate addiction.
It doesn't play fair.
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Jenny, Why did the elephant color her nails red?answer: to hide in the strawberry patch. Have you ever seen an elephant in a strawberry patch?... see it works! I know it's kind of corny but I hope it brought a smile to your drooping face. I don't have much to say other than something my wise mother told me all the time growing up..."Life isn't fair!" I'm learn over the years that this is soo true. I believe we have lots in common, more than we may realize. I pray for brighter days and continued hope for you and your wonderful little family. Don't forget to smile!
hang in there sweetheart. there is hope, i promise. i am a living, breathing example of that. email me anytime: motorfrog@hotmail.com
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